so tell me where should I begin
stuck in a battle I cannot win 
emotions buried deep within
running in circles again

obsessive thoughts I try to hide
possessive plots that try to climb the
suppressive spots in my own mind
the hourglass is running out of time

i keep chasing dreams of paradise
through the shadows where no light survives  

what if the calls were never real at all?  
just a fragile mirage of what I’ll never feel 

i’m eaten up by mortal sin
stuck in a spiral, i cannot win
burning everything around me
everything i touch is withering

i keep running away
from all the shit that i pull
searching for better days
but i see laughing faces
every time i close my eyes
chasing dreams of paradise

haunted by depression 
noises trigger my aggression
but I will learn no lesson
i won’t find a new direction
‘cause i am burned out
drowning in self doubt
can’t take this craving for a way out

i keep chasing dreams of paradise
through the shadows where no light survives  
are the calls of eden even real
what if the calls of eden were never real at all? 
just a fragile mirage of what i’ll never feel

down we go the rabbit hole

the search for clarity

every time i close my eyes
chasing dreams of paradise

i keep chasing dreams of paradise
through the shadows where no light survives  
are the calls of eden even real
what if the calls of eden were never real at all? 
just a fragile mirage of what i’ll never feel

never feel
what if the calls were never real at all? 
just a fragile mirage of what I’ll never feel